POETRY: Actor’s Lament

“lights up”
those two words
pack a punch
to knock you
out, of reality
in, to character
 
become a hybrid
of you and him
of you and her
somewhere between
you and the audience
you lose all sense
of concrete identity
 
what are you
with them, without them?
the show must go on
your anthem
your curse
insanity, driving you
insane
 
you must be, because
you only want more
and suddenly you realize
you don’t know when
the performance begins
the performance ends
when to become real
if you ever were real
at all